Desire to Change .... Desire to Go Deeper

A priest that I email each week read over my notes that I jotted down during my retreat last month. I wanted him to give me what he thought God's overall message to me was.

"Go deeper!"

I think you are too weak to change your life from its addiction to work.
You have to want to change.
I don't know if you want to change.
Maybe a spiritual director could help you start to change the tide.
And you need outside help.

How much louder does the Lord have to speak in order to get my attention?
and yet, it is what I desire ....

so.... what's taking me so long to even get started?

ah..... routine, rut, no boundaries .....
can't do it alone, on my own will-power.
my desire, an outside person who cares, and the Lord.

I hope to get there --

Get moving!
Get silent!
Give the Lord some time with your heart!